In 2014 and 2015 I traveled to Normandy, France for the DDay celebrations, and on to various related sites in Germany. There, I was confronted with stories of triumph and tragedy. I fell down a rabbit hole where individual story meets collective humanity, and a life-long attempt to suppress my fascination with World War Two was torn open.
I plunged into research. How did fascism take hold? Who were the everyday Germans of the 1930-40's? How did it come to the point that approximately 11 million people were killed in places like camps and execution pits at the hands of the Nazis? How is such a thing even possible?
Before I knew it, I was obsessed with understanding and began investigating the stories that have survived. Through reading, absorbing, and regurgitating the stories of my fellow humans, I began to assimilate and integrate knowledge - thought it was, and is, the sort of knowledge that sprouts new questions in perpetuity.
I felt alone in my research, because my world at the time could not have been less of a match for a person daily plunging into these dark annals of history. These pages below were my only outlet as I mentally, emotionally, and spiritually masticated questions about the full spectrum of humanity, and how seemingly normal people could collectively bring our world to war and genocide.
These pages are an intimate, private explosion of questions, emotions, and historical processing. I didn't share this work with anyone at the time of its creation. I didn't think I ever would.
Four tenacious years later, I am grateful to a wide network of historians, experts, researchers, hobbyists, survivors, and their descendants for sharing their knowledge with me - many of whom are now dear friends. And, I am proud to share my body of work.
Many of these pages can be seen in my book The In Between, which takes place in various concentration camps, battlefields, and massacre sites in Europe.