Under the Under

The years, of which I have spoken to you, when I pursued the inner images, were the most important time of my life.

Everything else is to be derived from this.

It began at that time, and the later details hardly matter anymore.

My entire life consisted in elaborating what had burst forth from the unconscious and flooded me like an enigmatic stream and threatened to break me.

That was the stuff and material for more than only one life.

Everything later was merely the outer classification, the scientific elaboration, and the integration into life.

But the numinous beginning, which contained everything, was then.” - Carl Jung

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The places we avoid are where the treasures lie.

What lives even deeper underneath the deep places you’ve traveled these last weeks?

Are you drowning in the sea of All The Things?

Are there words? Pictures?

Does reading the words of Carl Jung (above) provide a compass? For me, it feels like the numinous world he references IS MY compass … if and when I relax into it enough to let it be. That if I can allow the appropriate space to journey into it, and continue to peel back layers, I find the alchemical gold.

We are taught to avoid the numinous world, and …

We are taught to avoid the shadow, which is a VITAL part of it. Our collective narrative is all about the scary things in the dark: ghosts, witches, and vampires, oh my. Talk about shadow projections! We are SO GOOD at this in our human behaviors. We make ‘bad’ everything that is not our perception of good … and our perception of good is often totally rooted in our blind shadow aspects. Yikes. That’s a doozy.

But, like the image above, our shadow is with us whether we acknowledge it or not. Right there, stuck to our side, directing the show.

When we actually open the door to our shadow twin, and every part that lives underneath the underneaths within ourselves? We find out it is ACTUALLY the least scary place of all!!!

Because it is where freedom lives. It is where true connection lives.

It is where OUR WHOLE SELF lives.

And … what else IS there besides that?

Really?

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what you can do

What are your symbols?

What is your visual alphabet, so to speak?

What calls to your vision?

What speaks to the darkest, most shadowy corners of your soul? (Remember, we are not judging or shaming shadow …)

Can you let the words and pictures out through writing and drawing?

Or, cut them out of a magazine?

Can you actually enjoy them while you are being with them?

I mean that.

Totally.

Can you let your shadow just have what it wants for like, 5 seconds?

It will change your life.

Do you need a little more info about the concept of Shadow? This Wikipedia article is a great place to start.


demo video

This week my ‘check in’ around my project falls below the demo video. You’ll see why! :)

So.

I find myself wanting to thrust off the art journal, which is suddenly feeling quite cumbersome and cage-like. This is unexpected … and a result of my reclamation.

It feels amazing to follow a flow. I actually haven’t felt the freedom that has been inherent in the below demo in like, forever.

Last week was a great start. But this week, and the piece I begin in the below video?

Holy. Moly.

I can’t even tell you how good it feels. This piece is far from complete, and it feels VERY alive to me in my hands. The kind of alive where whole visions explode in your entire being.

SO.

WHAT FEELS GOOD TO YOU?

Can you let yourself have it in your process? Can you step outside your own self-imposed boxes and let it flow?


photos of Terezín

Here are a couple of photos of the building where I purchased the cloth used in my project. At the very left side next to the ‘yield’ sign is a barely visible arched doorway. That’s the entrance to the dusty, musty, decrepit shop where I bought the cloth and a few other items.

If you turn right at that yield sign and continue past this building, you will soon reach the train tracks; still visible, still pointing in the direction to Auschwitz as visible in the third photo.

If you read my book, The In Between, you know about Helga, who was a prisoner inside these ghetto walls. Helga’s uncle, who hid her diaries and drawings after her departure for Auschwitz, worked in the administration building (not visible here) across the street. His ‘work’, was of course, forced slave labor.

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my project

Oh. My. Goodness.

You guys.

I am truly enthralled with the DEEP.

My world is rapidly changing.

My sh*t is right here, in my lap, in my face.

I am sooooooooooo happy about it!!!!!

I’ve been reaching for these blind spots forever. I’m sharing it all over this page: in my chat above and in my demo. So … I’ll say a few words about the meaning behind what I am working on specifically in the video below.

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Also.

I am doing a food cleanse. A 21 day regimen that is the brainchild of my highly esteemed and qualified Crossfit coach and nutrition expert. It is perfect timing as all my STUFF comes roaring into my face.

So.

Because I’m me, I’m taking it further, and doing a 21 day all-kindsa cleanse. I’m going deep inside … like waaaaaaaaay deeper. I’m letting go of all the ways I reach out to my people for advice or help or distraction. I’m just going dark. Totally dark. I’m still on social media because it is my bread and butter. BUT. I am shifting the way I engage. I am finding WHO and WHAT and WHY in this dark cleansing place of mine.

It’s like a hermit’s paradise in here. You know I’m comfy in the dark. But this place is like a whole new pitch-black tunnel of my darkest sh*t.

And I like it.

I’m not afraid because I know that I’m in control - and that avoiding it may feel like control, but that is one of the biggest lies we tell ourselves.

AND it is challenging all my little needs for validation, all the ways I fill the holes inside of me, and all the ways I distract myself from looking at my shadows, blind spots, and ravenous ghosts.

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This week I’ve recorded a video talking a little more in depth about the symbols and choices of items in my demo video.


muse ::: carl jung

We’ve all heard of Carl Jung, right?

This man.

I adore this art.

I adore his contribution to the world of human behavior.

These images come from his work The Red Book which is a fairly recently published collection of his paintings. The symbology of this work is epic.

Carl Jung totally rocked symbols.

If he can, so can we. Right?????

Jung’s prolific outpourings of thought, writing, wisdom, and art are some of our greatest treasures.

And …..

YOU are a treasure. So, let’s see what you’ve got.

Show us your symbols, people.

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Here are a few of my favorite Jung quotes:

The artist is not a person endowed with free will who seeks his own ends, but one who allows art to realize its purpose within him. 

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The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed. 

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Often the hands will solve a mystery that the intellect has struggled with in vain.

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Below is a video sourced on YouTube in which you are taken on a tour inside The Red Book. It’s a little jangly and wobbly in a few places but overall is a great glimpse at this amazing compilation.